Actress Anna Kendrick recently detailed some aspects of a very emotional breakup, saying she created embryos with her ex-boyfriend before they decided to split up.
The 37-year-old actress made the revelations during a Monday episode of Dax Shepard’s “Armchair Expert” podcast.
“I was with someone — this was somebody I lived with, for all intents and purposes my husband. We had embryos together, this was my person,’” Kendrick explained.
“I remember telling my brother, when things had first kind of gone down, ‘I’m living with a stranger. Like, I don’t know what’s happening,’” she continued. “It wasn’t just the ‘Oh, I’m losing a relationship.’ It was that I believed that if we broke up or, you know, if he left basically, it was a confirmation that it’s because I’m impossible, I’m lucky that he’s even tolerating my bulls***.”
Kendrick said her ex would “scream” at her until she was “curled in a ball, sobbing.”
The “Pitch Perfect” actress said she tried couples therapy with her unidentified ex, but the relationship ended when he admitted to having feelings for someone else. She recalls him acting “strange” and confronting him about it.
“The worst possible thing was, I was like, ‘please don’t say this girl’s name,’ and he started talking about this girl.”
This event led the “Up In the Air” actress to question her self-worth.
“There was an inherent thing of me being so rejectable that this person who loved me very deeply for six years, it suddenly occurred to him, how awful I was or something,” the actress continued. “The shame, that lingers much longer.”
The actress admitted that she “dismantled” her life following the breakup, telling her agent, “I need to take time off, I have a mental health problem.”
Kendrick dated director Edgar Wright for four years, from 2009 to 2013, and also dated cinematographer Ben Richardson for a few years, per Us Weekly. The actress was also romantically linked with Jake Gyllenhaal and was dating Bill Hader at the beginning of 2022.
The actress also referenced her previous relationship in a September interview with People, saying she used her experience of “emotional abuse and psychological abuse” to inform her performance on “Alice, Darling.”
“I think my rep sent it to me, because he knew what I’d been dealing with and sent it along. Because he was like, ‘This sort of speaks to everything that you’ve been talking to me about,'” Kendrick told the publication.
“My body still believes that it was my fault,” she says. “So even with this concrete jumping off point for me, to walk out of that relationship knowing that I wasn’t crazy, it’s incredible the way that recovery has been so challenging.”
