A trans-identifying gunman who shot up a Catholic school’s church this week blamed transgenderism, weed, and his mother’s disapproval for his mental illness, according to newly uncovered writings.

Robin Westman, who legally changed his name from Robert in 2020 after he began identifying as female, said the way his mother handled his trangender identity made him want to kill people, according to the New York Post, which translated Westman’s writings from a mixture of Cyrillic characters and English phonetic words. Westman wrote about his transgender identity, weed use, and mother in a journal entry dated July 1.

“Your words, mother, made me stay in my discomfort unable to ask for help to avoid admitting defeat. You were right mama, but the way you handled it led me to wanting to kill so so many people,” Westman wrote.

“When I was first out to my mother, she was VERY antagonistic. She really made me hate myself and think I will never be good enough,” he wrote. “I remember one day, she said something like, ‘In the future you will look back and feel ridiculous about who you feel like you are inside. You will regret this.’”

“Well guess what mom?! I regret being born,” he said.

He blamed transgenderism and constant weed use for severe mental illness, and he expressed regret for his adoption of both.

“Gender and weed f***ed up my head,” Westman wrote. “I wish I never tried experimenting with either. Don’t let your kids smoke weed or change gender until they are like seventeen.”

Westman, 23, targeted the church at Annunciation Catholic School on Wednesday morning, firing through the church’s windows from a parking lot while students from the school attended mass. Westman killed two students, 8-year-old Fletcher Merkel and 10-year-old Harper Moyski, and wounded 18 others. The shooter died after turning his gun on himself.

The gunman left behind numerous writings, videos, and other communications that include deeply troubling and hateful thoughts and intentions. Westman directed strong feelings at Christians, Jews, and President Donald Trump, but also at himself and his transgender identity.

“I only keep [long hair] because it is pretty much my last shred of being trans. I am tired of being trans, I wish I never brain-washed myself,” Westman wrote.

“I can’t cut my hair now as it would be [an] embarrassing defeat, and it might be a concerning change of character that could get me reported,” he added. “It just always gets in my way. I will probably chop it on the day of the attack.”

Westman changed his name from Robert to Robin in 2020 at the age of 17. His mother, Mary Grace Westman, signed the official papers.

Medical organizations that have backed irreversible transgender procedures on kids are facing pressure after a transgender-identifying man murdered two children and injured 18 others at a Catholic school in Minnesota on Wednesday.

The shooter who attacked the school was identified as “Robin” Westman, a 23-year-old man who started identifying as female as a minor. Westman, who previously went by Robert, left behind a series of writings that described his regret in identifying as transgender, exhibited a hatred of Christians and Jews, and a desire to kill young kids. He killed himself after spraying bullets into a group of students gathered for a Mass.

Portions of Westman’s journal, which were scribbled in a mix of Russian Cyrillic script and English, were translated by the New York Post and revealed his dark thoughts as he struggled with his transgender identity.

“I only keep [long hair] because it is pretty much my last shred of being trans. I am tired of being trans, I wish I never brain-washed myself,” Westman reportedly wrote.

In another section of his journal, Westman reportedly wrote, “I don’t want to dress girly all the time but I guess sometimes I really like it. I know I am not a woman but I definitely don’t feel like a man.”

Westman’s journal entries cast doubt on the assertions of many major medical organizations that have claimed that regret rates for those who attempt to change their sex are incredibly low. The shooting came as Daily Wire host Ben Shapiro released leaked footage on Tuesday and Wednesday showing American Medical Association President Bobby Mukkamala and an “expert” endorsed by the org claiming that very few people regret “transitioning.”

“The shooter was a transgender regret case,” Shapiro posted Friday on X. “The day before this shooting, we exposed the American Medical Association’s negligence on regret data. The morning of, we exposed the AMA’s ‘trans expert’ admitting there’s no true psychiatric assessment done before transing a kid.”

The shooter was a transgender regret case.

The day before this shooting, we exposed the American Medical Association’s negligence on regret data. The morning of, we exposed the AMA’s ‘trans expert’ admitting there’s no true psychiatric assessment done before transing a kid. 🧵 pic.twitter.com/b05PnRCeNB

— Ben Shapiro (@benshapiro) August 29, 2025

The footage published this week by Shapiro showed both Mukkamala and Dr. Jesse Krikorian, a transgender-identifying woman offered up as an expert by the American Medical Association, claiming that about just 2% of people regret undergoing transgender procedures. They made those claims in two separate conversations with Michigan Republican state Rep. Brad Paquette.

The 2% regret rate comes from a study that only measured regret after surgery, not the tens of thousands of kids who have been placed on puberty blockers or cross-sex hormones. It also did not measure regret beyond two years after the initial surgery. The study also had an extremely high drop-out rate of almost 40%, making the data practically meaningless.

Shapiro said that Westman’s disturbing journal entries should be shown to leadership of the American Medical Association.

“The AMA must stop endorsing the process of having mentally ill young people meet with woke, affirmation-driven social workers and put on a medical transition path that can never actually change their sex,” Shapiro said on X.

The call was echoed by billionaire Elon Musk, who retweeted Shapiro’s thread and wrote “yes” in response to the post. Musk has told The Daily Wire that he was once “tricked” into approving so-called gender-affirming care for his child, and described his son as “killed by the woke mind virus.”

Lawmakers are also calling for an end to pushing kids down the transgender pipeline.

House GOP Whip Tom Emmer told the New York Post on Thursday that Democrat politicians in his home state like Governor Tim Walz had encouraged mental illness by making Minnesota a “refuge” for parents seeking to have their children undergo transgender procedures.

“They have been encouraging this type of confusion. This poor young man was tortured. He clearly had serious mental health issues and rather than actually helping him, they were actually exacerbating it,” he said. “You look at the sadness of these tortured human beings — because they do have regrets later — and no, we should have never started it. It should not be allowed.”